April 2 Pancake Marathon
- recovery is love
- Apr 2
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The Set Aside Prayer (or lay aside prayer): Dear God, please set aside everything I think I know About myself, this book, my disease, these steps, and especially about you dear God so that I might have an open mind And a new experience with all these things. Please help me to see the truth.
Pancake Marathon
You may think that there are a thousand different things being done in recovery, really there's just a thousand different ways of saying a few simple things.
So I look into my past and I see all things that I've come to associate myself with the permanency in my mind, so I used to say; for it's not that I didn't do these things and it's not that I wanted to do those things: for some things I did want to do I'm not going to walk away from that simple fact.
for is true that I am more than capable of just reflecting, for you see when I pass myself into depression would that then not be an absolute upon itself that I am avoiding my future (hope) somehow or would it be more adequately stated that somehow I don't know how to accept my future; to be or not to be, so who will I be?
I come to reflect on all things that I've done, see part of the key of reflection is acceptance and in that acceptance It's not that I get to judge it; for that is the power of reflection and to be or not to be.
for maybe this is elusive “to be or not to be,” And maybe it is something more than that itself; what will I make it though that is the question is it not: will I make it this or will I make it this?
and yet sometimes it is just what it is, and only through reflection and acceptance of what it can and is to be for only then will I see, what I wanted to be; Now I don't have to do what I did before and I do get to a point of doing what I can do different in the future, by starting now.
it's not that all things are horrible or even great, it just simply are what they are; and yes maybe understanding perfection comes with a myriad of half -truths that have led me through a path of life and death, and even to a point of insanity that led me to a point of being so willing to become almost called out as a Hermit to that simply known as the action of Solace.
I respect all of those things, for it is as simple as I want it to be; and yet still in the grand scheme of life to understand my purpose is to simply come to an understanding.
for would that not be the absolute in life? To somehow walk into the light, some would say depending on what you want in life don't walk into the light: because that's you embracing reincarnation and coming back to something yet you or your self-seeking (ego) attributes ( driven) would deem ( judge) horrible; for For then in all of itself would then that not be the purpose that we gave our life: maybe just in that moment and it can then still be deemed that just in that moment became a lifetime.
it also can be said don't go into the light, because xenophobia can kick in would it not be as such; for the fear or as such as the phobia through the acronym of fear: false evidence appearing real, would then state that you don't know what's going to happen so stay comfortable complacent and willing to do whatever it is to make this work: even if the answer is to embrace change and to look at a different: because would it not be your incomprehensible demoralization that led you down this pitfall ( yes deemed as such through the self-seeking willingness to survive and not survive)?
but in the end, is there truly an end or just beginning; in the beginning is then end for what has just ended and in the end is a beginning for what will come ( that brings forth what would be the metaphor of the two Footprints in the Sand: that of how Jesus carried you sometimes and that's the only reason you saw two Footprints in the Sand, but with that being an allegory of you walking into the future from your past and somehow you metaphorically died / as well as another Spiritual Awakening ( A Moment of clarity and something I get to keep) that of when you're walking in your now moment but somehow you do it through your willingness to live for the past and as the past in the present which ultimately I would say creates no future at all: I suppose at that point you would say that you are reliving your past but in truth you're just adding to your past moment based around You change again now which then shapes itself into your future ( the hope)).
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APS
carrying a message
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